Today was my last day in the office until June at the earliest. It’s probably just as well! After starting the day in a relatively good mood, it only took a team meeting to bring me down, and then I found myself cross at the people that I perceived as having negative vibes.
I then proceeded to allow those negative vibes to colour my whole day, all the while blaming others for their negativity. People in glass houses…
I caught myself doing this at one point, thankfully, and this led to a bit of a turning point as it led me to question why I was letting myself be triggered by someone else in this way. That in itself helped to break me out of the vicious circle I’d somehow let myself get swept up in and my mood began to lift a little.
The energy around us at the moment is, generally, one of fear. How could it not be? It was only 3 days ago, I described myself as having a “mini-meltdown” and yet here I was judging someone else for the way they were coping.
Having said that, beating myself up mentally for not being immediately compassionate wasn’t going to help either. We are all feeding off each other’s energy at the moment, without realising it.
One of the better known spiritual teachers in the Western world is of course, Eckhart Tolle. If you’re not familiar with him, I’ve put a link to the videos I watched of his on YouTube this evening that are, I think, a great introduction to him. One takes a more serious tone, describing the well-known parable of the New Testament of building houses on sand or rock and how that can be applied to Covid-19; the other is more funny and quite an accurate description of how many of us live our lives surrounded by “all these difficult people and challenges”, usually not realising that we need these difficult people and challenges to push us to connect with our real and higher selves. In essence then, as Eckhart Tolle discusses, Covid-19 could be a real opportunity for our own spiritual awakening and that of the planet.
Even if you’re not a follower of Christianity, and I’m not myself, the “special message” video is very calming and soothing to listen to, especially if you find yourself getting caught up in the negative energies around us all and has some great practical ideas as to easy steps you can take now to relax and just be with it. The other video is just a funny reminder not to take ourselves, or this situation, so seriously all of the time.
In the playlist I’ve linked to on my YouTube channel, there’s also the Yoga with Adriene video that was on today’s calendar, “Anchor in Hope”. I started the day with this video and partway through, Adriene encourages us to say to ourselves, “I trust”. I found myself having to say that to myself a few times today too when the negativity threatened to overwhelm me. What else can we do at times like these?
Today was a good lesson in remembering that when I am triggered it is a reflection of something within me that needs my attention. When I focus on that, instead of whoever I perceive as having caused the upset, it is easier to re-centre and re-connect.
I’m sure I’ll need reminding of this lesson a lot more before I learn it for good, but I’m just happy to be ending the day in positive vibes.